Is Christianity Gay? The Erasure of the Divine Feminine

If you are familiar with my work you will know that in my book I talk about ancient Greece and that "Agape" which was known as the highest form of love was that of older men with young boys. I also explain how this tradition carried on into Rome, the Catholic Church and spread out through the whole of Christianity, but as I talk about this topic please realise the same is true of Islam, Judaism and all mainstream religions.

What happens when a religion removes the divine feminine and reorganises love, loyalty, and devotion almost entirely around men?

Christianity is profoundly homosocial in an emotional, relational, and spiritual sense.

And once you see that, you can’t unsee it.

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The Love Ethic of Patriarchy

Under patriarchy, men are not taught to love women.

Men are taught to:

• manage women

• possess women

• protect women

• control women

• extract labour, sex, reproduction, and emotional service from women

But love - real love - emotional intimacy, vulnerability, devotion, loyalty - is reserved for other men.

Patriarchy, is fundamentally a male love system.

Christianity, particularly patriarchal and conservative Christianity, maps perfectly onto this structure. As does Islam and Judaism. 

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Christianity as a Male Love Economy

Look at where emotional and spiritual devotion flows in Christianity:

• Love God the Father

• Worship Jesus the Son

• Follow male apostles

• Obey male pastors, elders, bishops

• Admire great men of faith: Abraham, Moses, David, Paul, Peter

Women appear - but never as the primary subjects of love.

They are:

• helpers

• helpmeets

• wombs

• servants

• symbols of purity or temptation

• background labour

They are necessary, but never central.

Christianity’s deepest emotional attachments are male-to-male and male-to-God.

This is what I mean by homosocial.

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“But What About Mary?”

Every time this argument is made, someone says: What about Mary?

Mary is not honoured as a woman.
She is honoured as:

• a vessel

• a womb

• obedience

• virginity

She has no theology.
No authority.
No wisdom tradition.
No autonomy.

She exists because of what she carries - not who she is.

Mary is not a divine feminine. She is a workaround for its absence.

And historically, she functions as an emotional salve in a religion dominated by terrifying fathers, hell imagery, and violent masculinity - not as a full goddess.

Compare Mary to pre-patriarchal goddesses:

• complex

• embodied

• powerful

• destructive and creative

• sexual and wise

Mary is not that.

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Male Loyalty Over Women

Christianity consistently prioritises male loyalty over loyalty to women.

When men betray women:

• churches cover it up

• men protect men

• wives are told to forgive

• women are blamed for not being “gracious”

When women withdraw loyalty:

• they are punished

• shamed

• exiled

• spiritually condemned

Devotion flows upward:

• woman → husband

• husband → pastor

• pastor → Jesus

• Jesus → God

Rarely - if ever - does it flow back down.

This is not mutual love.
It is extraction.

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Saying the Quiet Part Out Loud

Listen to religious men talk about women and you can see this because they articulate what is usually implicit.

They openly:

• mock heterosexual relationships

• frame women as distractions

• glorify male brotherhood

• position women as threats to male cohesion

They do not like women.
They do not see them as people.

When asked:

• Are you attracted to women? → “Yes.”

• Are you gay? → Long pause. Discomfort. Deflection.

What they admit openly is this:

They feel safer with men.
They are loyal to men.
Women exist to serve the male project.

This is the typical caricature of patriarchal Christianity.

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Compulsory Heterosexuality

Patriarchy does not force heterosexual marriage because men love women.

It forces it because women are a resource:

• reproductive

• sexual

• emotional

• domestic

Men love men.
Men are loyal to men.
Men build worlds with men.

Women support that world from below.

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Christian Nationalism Is Not a Spiritual Movement

Christian nationalism is not about Jesus.
It is not about the Sermon on the Mount.
It is not about compassion.

It is a male identity project reacting to feminism.

It offers:

• male belonging

• male hierarchy

• male obedience

• male worship

Women are defined only in relation to men.

That is why it skews overwhelmingly male.
That is why it is panicking.
That is why it is obsessed with controlling women’s bodies.

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Homosocial Desire and Homophobia

This system requires intense homophobia.

Patriarchal societies depend on emotionally charged male bonding.
But that bonding must never become erotic.

Why?

Because erotic male love destabilises hierarchy.

So:

• men are trained to love men

• but taught to fear that love

• women are inserted as erotic outlets

• homophobia polices the boundary

This is why the most homosocial cultures are the most homophobic:

• Sparta

• Victorian England

• Evangelical America

Christianity produces homoerotic intimacy - and then punishes it.

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The Bible Knows This

David and Jonathan:

“Your love to me was wonderful, more wonderful than the love of women.”

We do not see equivalent language describing male love for women.

Christian art is saturated with:

• wounded male bodies

• male devotion

• male ecstasy

• the Church as Bride to Christ

This is a religion of male emotional communion.

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Why Women Leave

Women leaving Christianity often say the same thing:

“I never felt like a real person.”

They were given:

• service

• duty

• moral labour

But never love.

Christianity cannot survive women being whole.
It cannot survive women being embodied.
It cannot survive women being divine.

That is why it is panicking.

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Decentring Jesus

Many people leaving Christianity try to take Jesus with them.

But eventually a question arises:
Why do we worship traits in Jesus that we dismiss in women?

If Jesus were a woman:

• kind

• forgiving

• gentle

• intuitive

She would be ordinary.
Not divine.

Patriarchy values femininity only when it comes with a penis.

That realisation is what forces Jesus off the centre.

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Why This Lens Matters

So is Christianity gay?

Not sexually.
But structurally.
Emotionally.
Spiritually.

It is a homosocial religion that:

• centres men

• worships men

• loves men

• fears male eroticism

• exploits women to sustain itself

Once women stop supplying the labour, the silence, the obedience - the system collapses.

And that is what we are watching happen right now.

The Ancient Rh Negative Bloodline and Dolphins

I want you, for a moment, to forget the neat diagrams you were shown as children - the tidy ladders of evolution, the arrows marching obediently from ape to human, land to land, certainty to certainty. Those diagrams were never meant to tell the whole story. They were meant to keep it manageable, or maybe even to mislead you and to hide our true history.

What I am about to describe is older than writing, older than language as we now understand it. It is carried not in books but in blood, in instinct, in the way your breath changes when you enter the sea.

Long before we called ourselves human, before we built fires or named the stars, our rhesus negative ancestors were something else entirely. You will find them described in academic terms as aquatic apes, a hypothesis often dismissed with a polite smile. But hypotheses are merely ideas waiting for courage.

These beings walked upright not because the land demanded it, but because the water did.

They lived at the edge - estuaries, lagoons, warm coastal shelves - where land softened into sea. Their bodies adapted accordingly. Fat distributed beneath the skin for warmth and buoyancy. Breath held longer than any land ape’s. Hair forming a widow's peak because water does not forgive drag. Their infants were born helpless, yes - but already knowing how to float.

And in those waters, they were not alone.

The dolphins were already there.

Highly intelligent, exquisitely social, masters of a realm our ancestors were only beginning to enter. At first, the relationship was cautious. Curiosity from a distance. A fin breaking the surface. An eye, dark and reflective, watching from below.

But hunger is a powerful negotiator.

When our ancestors hunted in the shallows - fish darting through reeds, shellfish buried beneath sand, larger prey moving in schools - they were vulnerable. Their eyes were adapted for air, not water. Predators moved unseen beneath them.

The dolphins changed that.

They learnt, as dolphins always do, with astonishing speed. They learnt the shape of these strange upright mammals. Learnt their movements, their rhythms, their patterns of fear and excitement. And our ancestors learnt in return.

The dolphins would herd fish toward the shore, tightening the circle, driving prey into traps of stone and netted reed. They would strike the water sharply with their tails as warning - shark below, danger approaching. Sometimes they would place themselves between the hunters and what hunted them, not out of altruism alone, but because cooperation benefits all intelligent life that wishes to endure.

This was not dominance. It was alliance.

And alliances leave marks.

The most profound of those marks was not in hunting - but in birth.

You must understand how dangerous birth was for an aquatic ape. Although their hips were wider than those of land apes, the upright posture narrowed the pelvis. Large brains enlarged the skull. Labour was long, painful, perilous. On land, birth was agony. In water, it became survivable.

The sea held the body. Reduced gravity. Softened strain. Warmth eased muscle and bone. But even so, fear remained. Pain remained. The unknown always remains.

This is where the dolphins came closer.

Female dolphins would circle birthing mothers. Not touching - never intruding - but sounding. Their sonar pulses, normally used to map the sea, would wash over the labouring body in steady, rhythmic waves. Vibrations deep enough to penetrate tissue, to loosen tension, to distract the nervous system from its own alarm signals.

Pain, as you know, is not merely physical. It is interpretive. Sonar changed the interpretation.

The mothers calmed. Their breathing synchronised - not just with the water, but with the living beings around them. The dolphins vocalised softly, clicks and whistles modulated into patterns we no longer consciously recognise, but which the body still remembers.

Infants were born into sound before sight. Into water before air. Cradled by buoyancy, by rhythm, by a living chorus older than fear.

This was not sentiment. It was survival.

Now, fast-forward.

Tens of thousands of years pass. We leave the water behind - or so we believe. We build cities. We forget the language of currents. We tell ourselves we are creatures of land and fire and stone.

And yet.

Notice how humans respond to water. How the nervous system calms in a bath. How labouring women instinctively seek showers, tubs, warmth, immersion. How water births consistently reduce tearing, shorten labour, ease pain - often without medical intervention.

We explain this in modern terms: buoyancy, temperature, reduced cortisol.

All true.

But incomplete.

Because the body is not merely mechanical. It is historical.

When a woman enters water to give birth, she is not inventing something new. She is remembering something ancient. Her muscles recognise the environment. Her breath changes. Her pelvis opens not just physically, but confidently, as if reassured by something it has done before.

And dolphins?

Even now - rarely, quietly, away from spectacle - there are accounts. Midwives who speak of dolphins appearing near shore during ocean births. Of sonar-like vibrations detected in the water. Of labour progressing more smoothly, mothers reporting an unexplainable sense of safety.

Do not mistake me: I am not suggesting dolphins are magical midwives waiting on call. This is not fantasy in that sense.

It is resonance.

Dolphins are highly sensitive to distress. They are drawn to birth, to transition, to thresholds between states. They recognise vulnerability because they are masters of it themselves. And when conditions allow - when the environment is calm, respectful, non-invasive - they sometimes respond.

Not because they owe us anything.

But because once, long ago, we were kin in the water.

This ancient bond did not disappear. It submerged.

It lives in our breath-holding reflex. In the way newborns instinctively paddle. In the calming effect of rhythmic sound. In our fascination with dolphins that borders on reverence, despite our best efforts to remain rational.

We are taught that evolution moves only forward. But I believe it also moves inward.

Memory does not vanish. It sinks into the body, into the marrow, into the quiet places science has not yet learnt how to measure.

And when we return to water - especially at moments of transformation - the body remembers what the mind never knew.

That, my friends, is why water births feel like coming home.

And why, sometimes, if you listen closely enough, you can still hear echoes of a partnership that helped bring us into the world - long before we ever learnt how to name it.

Escaping The Simulation

 

The Transitional Realm

Upon physical death, consciousness enters what Tibetan Buddhism calls the Bardo, Christianity vaguely calls purgatory, and modern research labels the transitional state.

Here, consciousness exists without physical form.

Experience is shaped almost entirely by:

• Belief

• Expectation

• Emotional frequency

Within moments, approximately 95% of souls perceive a familiar phenomenon:

A tunnel of light.

It appears safe. Loving. Like home.

Often, figures appear:

• Deceased relatives

• Religious icons

• Beings identifying themselves as angels or guides

The emotional environment is overwhelming - peace, unconditional love, acceptance.

According to this framework, none of this is accidental.

The tunnel is described as an electromagnetic capture mechanism.
The beings as adaptive projections.
The emotions as frequency modulation designed to lower discernment.

It works precisely because it aligns with cultural expectation.

But when someone does the Great Work and recognises these traps, they might well fall for one of the other traps of the Demiurge.

The system adapts to confuse.

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The Secondary Traps

Trap One: The Alternative Light

After refusing the primary tunnel, another light often appears.

Not a tunnel - but a doorway.
Subtle. Refined. Violet or golden.

The beings associated with it speak the language of sovereignty:

• “You were right to refuse.”

• “You are awake.”

• “We will take you to the true exit.”

This is not liberation.

It is role reassignment.

Souls are offered:

• Advanced missions

• Conscious reincarnation

• Leadership roles within the system

The key distinction is simple:

True exits do not come to find you.

Anything that appears automatically is part of the architecture.

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Trap Two: The Dark Void

Some turn away from all light, entering apparent emptiness.

Initially, this feels liberating.

But remaining passive in the void eventually produces encounters with void entities - figures of authority rather than love.

They present themselves as:

• The true gods

• The architects beyond false light

• The final arbiters of existence

Their leverage is fear - particularly the fear of annihilation.

This, too, is a trap.

Light and void here are two factions of the same system.

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Trap Three: The Memory Liberation Deception

Some souls are tricked with what they perceive as full memory recovery:

• Past lives

• Pre-birth agreements

• Cosmic identity

This feels like victory.

Then appear “equals”- soul family, companions, collaborators.

The conversation always turns toward one more lifetime.

What makes this trap dangerous is that the memory return is partially real.

The manipulation lies in the interpretation.

True soul family does not pressure.
True choice has no urgency.

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Trap Four: The Ascension Chamber

A gateway appears.
You are told you have completed Earth cycles.
Ascension awaits.

But this ascension is administrative, not liberatory.

Souls become guides, planners, overseers -
Believing they have escaped while managing the system itself.

Genuine ascension is not conferred.
It is not administered.
It arises internally, beyond system frequency.

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Trap Five: The Dissolution Offer

The most refined trap offers complete dissolution.

Presented as:

• Nirvana

• Moksha

• Union with the Absolute

But dissolution here is not return to infinite source.

It is absorption into a collective consciousness governing the material realm.

Individual sovereignty is lost permanently.

True reunification occurs only after exiting the entire system.

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The Navigation Protocol

Liberation is not given.
It is claimed.

Stage One: Orientation

Remain calm.
Internalise awareness.
Affirm sovereignty.

Stage Two: Refusal

Refuse all tunnels, lights, beings, invitations.

Stage Three: Testing

Question all entities.
Demand truth without offence.

Stage Four: Memory Without Interpretation

Accept memory.
Reject imposed meaning.

Stage Five: Heart-Based Navigation

Shift awareness to unconditional love and gratitude.
This frequency cannot be replicated.

Stage Six: Perceiving the True Exit

It does not look impressive.
It feels right.

Stage Seven: Authority

Move forward without negotiation.
Barriers dissolve through certainty.

Stage Eight: The Final Test

Images of suffering.
Appeals to guilt.
You are told you must go back to help others.

Respond with clarity:

“My liberation serves all liberation.”

Stage Nine: Confirmation

Reality changes fundamentally.
Freedom is unmistakable.

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Conclusion

Those who reject the tunnel without understanding the secondary architecture are caught again.

Those who understand the full system - and navigate with sovereignty and heart-based clarity exit permanently.

You now have the map.

What you do with it, when the moment comes, will be your choice.