Is Christianity Gay? The Erasure of the Divine Feminine

If you are familiar with my work you will know that in my book I talk about ancient Greece and that "Agape" which was known as the highest form of love was that of older men with young boys. I also explain how this tradition carried on into Rome, the Catholic Church and spread out through the whole of Christianity, but as I talk about this topic please realise the same is true of Islam, Judaism and all mainstream religions.

What happens when a religion removes the divine feminine and reorganises love, loyalty, and devotion almost entirely around men?

Christianity is profoundly homosocial in an emotional, relational, and spiritual sense.

And once you see that, you can’t unsee it.

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The Love Ethic of Patriarchy

Under patriarchy, men are not taught to love women.

Men are taught to:

• manage women

• possess women

• protect women

• control women

• extract labour, sex, reproduction, and emotional service from women

But love - real love - emotional intimacy, vulnerability, devotion, loyalty - is reserved for other men.

Patriarchy, is fundamentally a male love system.

Christianity, particularly patriarchal and conservative Christianity, maps perfectly onto this structure. As does Islam and Judaism. 

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Christianity as a Male Love Economy

Look at where emotional and spiritual devotion flows in Christianity:

• Love God the Father

• Worship Jesus the Son

• Follow male apostles

• Obey male pastors, elders, bishops

• Admire great men of faith: Abraham, Moses, David, Paul, Peter

Women appear - but never as the primary subjects of love.

They are:

• helpers

• helpmeets

• wombs

• servants

• symbols of purity or temptation

• background labour

They are necessary, but never central.

Christianity’s deepest emotional attachments are male-to-male and male-to-God.

This is what I mean by homosocial.

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“But What About Mary?”

Every time this argument is made, someone says: What about Mary?

Mary is not honoured as a woman.
She is honoured as:

• a vessel

• a womb

• obedience

• virginity

She has no theology.
No authority.
No wisdom tradition.
No autonomy.

She exists because of what she carries - not who she is.

Mary is not a divine feminine. She is a workaround for its absence.

And historically, she functions as an emotional salve in a religion dominated by terrifying fathers, hell imagery, and violent masculinity - not as a full goddess.

Compare Mary to pre-patriarchal goddesses:

• complex

• embodied

• powerful

• destructive and creative

• sexual and wise

Mary is not that.

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Male Loyalty Over Women

Christianity consistently prioritises male loyalty over loyalty to women.

When men betray women:

• churches cover it up

• men protect men

• wives are told to forgive

• women are blamed for not being “gracious”

When women withdraw loyalty:

• they are punished

• shamed

• exiled

• spiritually condemned

Devotion flows upward:

• woman → husband

• husband → pastor

• pastor → Jesus

• Jesus → God

Rarely - if ever - does it flow back down.

This is not mutual love.
It is extraction.

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Saying the Quiet Part Out Loud

Listen to religious men talk about women and you can see this because they articulate what is usually implicit.

They openly:

• mock heterosexual relationships

• frame women as distractions

• glorify male brotherhood

• position women as threats to male cohesion

They do not like women.
They do not see them as people.

When asked:

• Are you attracted to women? → “Yes.”

• Are you gay? → Long pause. Discomfort. Deflection.

What they admit openly is this:

They feel safer with men.
They are loyal to men.
Women exist to serve the male project.

This is the typical caricature of patriarchal Christianity.

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Compulsory Heterosexuality

Patriarchy does not force heterosexual marriage because men love women.

It forces it because women are a resource:

• reproductive

• sexual

• emotional

• domestic

Men love men.
Men are loyal to men.
Men build worlds with men.

Women support that world from below.

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Christian Nationalism Is Not a Spiritual Movement

Christian nationalism is not about Jesus.
It is not about the Sermon on the Mount.
It is not about compassion.

It is a male identity project reacting to feminism.

It offers:

• male belonging

• male hierarchy

• male obedience

• male worship

Women are defined only in relation to men.

That is why it skews overwhelmingly male.
That is why it is panicking.
That is why it is obsessed with controlling women’s bodies.

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Homosocial Desire and Homophobia

This system requires intense homophobia.

Patriarchal societies depend on emotionally charged male bonding.
But that bonding must never become erotic.

Why?

Because erotic male love destabilises hierarchy.

So:

• men are trained to love men

• but taught to fear that love

• women are inserted as erotic outlets

• homophobia polices the boundary

This is why the most homosocial cultures are the most homophobic:

• Sparta

• Victorian England

• Evangelical America

Christianity produces homoerotic intimacy - and then punishes it.

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The Bible Knows This

David and Jonathan:

“Your love to me was wonderful, more wonderful than the love of women.”

We do not see equivalent language describing male love for women.

Christian art is saturated with:

• wounded male bodies

• male devotion

• male ecstasy

• the Church as Bride to Christ

This is a religion of male emotional communion.

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Why Women Leave

Women leaving Christianity often say the same thing:

“I never felt like a real person.”

They were given:

• service

• duty

• moral labour

But never love.

Christianity cannot survive women being whole.
It cannot survive women being embodied.
It cannot survive women being divine.

That is why it is panicking.

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Decentring Jesus

Many people leaving Christianity try to take Jesus with them.

But eventually a question arises:
Why do we worship traits in Jesus that we dismiss in women?

If Jesus were a woman:

• kind

• forgiving

• gentle

• intuitive

She would be ordinary.
Not divine.

Patriarchy values femininity only when it comes with a penis.

That realisation is what forces Jesus off the centre.

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Why This Lens Matters

So is Christianity gay?

Not sexually.
But structurally.
Emotionally.
Spiritually.

It is a homosocial religion that:

• centres men

• worships men

• loves men

• fears male eroticism

• exploits women to sustain itself

Once women stop supplying the labour, the silence, the obedience - the system collapses.

And that is what we are watching happen right now.

The Ancient Rh Negative Bloodline and Dolphins

I want you, for a moment, to forget the neat diagrams you were shown as children - the tidy ladders of evolution, the arrows marching obediently from ape to human, land to land, certainty to certainty. Those diagrams were never meant to tell the whole story. They were meant to keep it manageable, or maybe even to mislead you and to hide our true history.

What I am about to describe is older than writing, older than language as we now understand it. It is carried not in books but in blood, in instinct, in the way your breath changes when you enter the sea.

Long before we called ourselves human, before we built fires or named the stars, our rhesus negative ancestors were something else entirely. You will find them described in academic terms as aquatic apes, a hypothesis often dismissed with a polite smile. But hypotheses are merely ideas waiting for courage.

These beings walked upright not because the land demanded it, but because the water did.

They lived at the edge - estuaries, lagoons, warm coastal shelves - where land softened into sea. Their bodies adapted accordingly. Fat distributed beneath the skin for warmth and buoyancy. Breath held longer than any land ape’s. Hair forming a widow's peak because water does not forgive drag. Their infants were born helpless, yes - but already knowing how to float.

And in those waters, they were not alone.

The dolphins were already there.

Highly intelligent, exquisitely social, masters of a realm our ancestors were only beginning to enter. At first, the relationship was cautious. Curiosity from a distance. A fin breaking the surface. An eye, dark and reflective, watching from below.

But hunger is a powerful negotiator.

When our ancestors hunted in the shallows - fish darting through reeds, shellfish buried beneath sand, larger prey moving in schools - they were vulnerable. Their eyes were adapted for air, not water. Predators moved unseen beneath them.

The dolphins changed that.

They learnt, as dolphins always do, with astonishing speed. They learnt the shape of these strange upright mammals. Learnt their movements, their rhythms, their patterns of fear and excitement. And our ancestors learnt in return.

The dolphins would herd fish toward the shore, tightening the circle, driving prey into traps of stone and netted reed. They would strike the water sharply with their tails as warning - shark below, danger approaching. Sometimes they would place themselves between the hunters and what hunted them, not out of altruism alone, but because cooperation benefits all intelligent life that wishes to endure.

This was not dominance. It was alliance.

And alliances leave marks.

The most profound of those marks was not in hunting - but in birth.

You must understand how dangerous birth was for an aquatic ape. Although their hips were wider than those of land apes, the upright posture narrowed the pelvis. Large brains enlarged the skull. Labour was long, painful, perilous. On land, birth was agony. In water, it became survivable.

The sea held the body. Reduced gravity. Softened strain. Warmth eased muscle and bone. But even so, fear remained. Pain remained. The unknown always remains.

This is where the dolphins came closer.

Female dolphins would circle birthing mothers. Not touching - never intruding - but sounding. Their sonar pulses, normally used to map the sea, would wash over the labouring body in steady, rhythmic waves. Vibrations deep enough to penetrate tissue, to loosen tension, to distract the nervous system from its own alarm signals.

Pain, as you know, is not merely physical. It is interpretive. Sonar changed the interpretation.

The mothers calmed. Their breathing synchronised - not just with the water, but with the living beings around them. The dolphins vocalised softly, clicks and whistles modulated into patterns we no longer consciously recognise, but which the body still remembers.

Infants were born into sound before sight. Into water before air. Cradled by buoyancy, by rhythm, by a living chorus older than fear.

This was not sentiment. It was survival.

Now, fast-forward.

Tens of thousands of years pass. We leave the water behind - or so we believe. We build cities. We forget the language of currents. We tell ourselves we are creatures of land and fire and stone.

And yet.

Notice how humans respond to water. How the nervous system calms in a bath. How labouring women instinctively seek showers, tubs, warmth, immersion. How water births consistently reduce tearing, shorten labour, ease pain - often without medical intervention.

We explain this in modern terms: buoyancy, temperature, reduced cortisol.

All true.

But incomplete.

Because the body is not merely mechanical. It is historical.

When a woman enters water to give birth, she is not inventing something new. She is remembering something ancient. Her muscles recognise the environment. Her breath changes. Her pelvis opens not just physically, but confidently, as if reassured by something it has done before.

And dolphins?

Even now - rarely, quietly, away from spectacle - there are accounts. Midwives who speak of dolphins appearing near shore during ocean births. Of sonar-like vibrations detected in the water. Of labour progressing more smoothly, mothers reporting an unexplainable sense of safety.

Do not mistake me: I am not suggesting dolphins are magical midwives waiting on call. This is not fantasy in that sense.

It is resonance.

Dolphins are highly sensitive to distress. They are drawn to birth, to transition, to thresholds between states. They recognise vulnerability because they are masters of it themselves. And when conditions allow - when the environment is calm, respectful, non-invasive - they sometimes respond.

Not because they owe us anything.

But because once, long ago, we were kin in the water.

This ancient bond did not disappear. It submerged.

It lives in our breath-holding reflex. In the way newborns instinctively paddle. In the calming effect of rhythmic sound. In our fascination with dolphins that borders on reverence, despite our best efforts to remain rational.

We are taught that evolution moves only forward. But I believe it also moves inward.

Memory does not vanish. It sinks into the body, into the marrow, into the quiet places science has not yet learnt how to measure.

And when we return to water - especially at moments of transformation - the body remembers what the mind never knew.

That, my friends, is why water births feel like coming home.

And why, sometimes, if you listen closely enough, you can still hear echoes of a partnership that helped bring us into the world - long before we ever learnt how to name it.

Escaping The Simulation

 

The Transitional Realm

Upon physical death, consciousness enters what Tibetan Buddhism calls the Bardo, Christianity vaguely calls purgatory, and modern research labels the transitional state.

Here, consciousness exists without physical form.

Experience is shaped almost entirely by:

• Belief

• Expectation

• Emotional frequency

Within moments, approximately 95% of souls perceive a familiar phenomenon:

A tunnel of light.

It appears safe. Loving. Like home.

Often, figures appear:

• Deceased relatives

• Religious icons

• Beings identifying themselves as angels or guides

The emotional environment is overwhelming - peace, unconditional love, acceptance.

According to this framework, none of this is accidental.

The tunnel is described as an electromagnetic capture mechanism.
The beings as adaptive projections.
The emotions as frequency modulation designed to lower discernment.

It works precisely because it aligns with cultural expectation.

But when someone does the Great Work and recognises these traps, they might well fall for one of the other traps of the Demiurge.

The system adapts to confuse.

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The Secondary Traps

Trap One: The Alternative Light

After refusing the primary tunnel, another light often appears.

Not a tunnel - but a doorway.
Subtle. Refined. Violet or golden.

The beings associated with it speak the language of sovereignty:

• “You were right to refuse.”

• “You are awake.”

• “We will take you to the true exit.”

This is not liberation.

It is role reassignment.

Souls are offered:

• Advanced missions

• Conscious reincarnation

• Leadership roles within the system

The key distinction is simple:

True exits do not come to find you.

Anything that appears automatically is part of the architecture.

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Trap Two: The Dark Void

Some turn away from all light, entering apparent emptiness.

Initially, this feels liberating.

But remaining passive in the void eventually produces encounters with void entities - figures of authority rather than love.

They present themselves as:

• The true gods

• The architects beyond false light

• The final arbiters of existence

Their leverage is fear - particularly the fear of annihilation.

This, too, is a trap.

Light and void here are two factions of the same system.

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Trap Three: The Memory Liberation Deception

Some souls are tricked with what they perceive as full memory recovery:

• Past lives

• Pre-birth agreements

• Cosmic identity

This feels like victory.

Then appear “equals”- soul family, companions, collaborators.

The conversation always turns toward one more lifetime.

What makes this trap dangerous is that the memory return is partially real.

The manipulation lies in the interpretation.

True soul family does not pressure.
True choice has no urgency.

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Trap Four: The Ascension Chamber

A gateway appears.
You are told you have completed Earth cycles.
Ascension awaits.

But this ascension is administrative, not liberatory.

Souls become guides, planners, overseers -
Believing they have escaped while managing the system itself.

Genuine ascension is not conferred.
It is not administered.
It arises internally, beyond system frequency.

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Trap Five: The Dissolution Offer

The most refined trap offers complete dissolution.

Presented as:

• Nirvana

• Moksha

• Union with the Absolute

But dissolution here is not return to infinite source.

It is absorption into a collective consciousness governing the material realm.

Individual sovereignty is lost permanently.

True reunification occurs only after exiting the entire system.

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The Navigation Protocol

Liberation is not given.
It is claimed.

Stage One: Orientation

Remain calm.
Internalise awareness.
Affirm sovereignty.

Stage Two: Refusal

Refuse all tunnels, lights, beings, invitations.

Stage Three: Testing

Question all entities.
Demand truth without offence.

Stage Four: Memory Without Interpretation

Accept memory.
Reject imposed meaning.

Stage Five: Heart-Based Navigation

Shift awareness to unconditional love and gratitude.
This frequency cannot be replicated.

Stage Six: Perceiving the True Exit

It does not look impressive.
It feels right.

Stage Seven: Authority

Move forward without negotiation.
Barriers dissolve through certainty.

Stage Eight: The Final Test

Images of suffering.
Appeals to guilt.
You are told you must go back to help others.

Respond with clarity:

“My liberation serves all liberation.”

Stage Nine: Confirmation

Reality changes fundamentally.
Freedom is unmistakable.

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Conclusion

Those who reject the tunnel without understanding the secondary architecture are caught again.

Those who understand the full system - and navigate with sovereignty and heart-based clarity exit permanently.

You now have the map.

What you do with it, when the moment comes, will be your choice.

A World Ruled By Narcissism

"The mind colours the soul with every thought it holds.

Choose thoughts you would not hesitate to expose to the brightness of truth.

Your character is not fate it is fashioned by your own hand.

With each passing day, the choices you make and the actions you take shape your becoming.

Honour is the thread of destiny, the lamp that lights your way." Tau Tia 2013

My life is what I do. I don’t want all the trappings of the material world. The strange thing is that many people find it difficult to accept that anyone would dedicate their life to a cause, working seven days a week sometimes fifteen hours a day, just because they believe in it. 

The unaware will say there must be a catch. She must be doing it for some kind of gain. 

No.

I’m doing it because before I leave this reality, I want to do everything I can to make a difference. I’m not the one who’ll be still here, living most of their lives in the eternal looping nightmare.

Since when was what you do only about what affects you? Why has narcissism become the norm.

All we here is:  "Me. Me. Me. What’s in it for me? Should I be kind to others? Well, is that kindness going to benefit me? No? Well then I’m too busy with my own concerns…"

I’m just trying to make a difference.

So to those who can’t understand that some people don’t do things for what they get back: the satisfaction comes from making a difference. And I admit at times I do feel like I am not making any difference at all and I do get upset about that, and frustrated, but I carry on, because even unaware ungrateful people are only like that because they are trapped in the material worlds selfish egoism, maybe something I say will help them realise that.

If people spent more time contributing to positive change instead of undermining those trying to help, the world would be a better place.

It’s a bizarre idea that to do anything, you must be doing it for the money, fame or adoration. It’s not true. I’m by no means poor, but over the years there were many periods of earning nothing, surviving on what I’d saved.

But through all those periods, you keep going because you believe in what you’re doing. You find a way.

So don't assume the worst of someone who has nothing other than what you see here, my Gnosis, my passion for truth and my unwavering dedication to revive the memories in those who most of the time don't even know they need to remember.

I am often hearing that those you help are the first to stab you in the back, and this has happened to me so many times over the years. People getting angry at the truth I am sharing, and blaming me for it. People who I thought had become friends just ghosting me because they don't want to work on themselves, or they are trying to project their flaws on to me. I am used that, but it doesn't mean I enjoy it.

It would be so nice if we could all just remember who and what we are and stop allowing the program to corrupt us into selfish, self-centred, narcissists.

How about giving kindness a chance?

Remember, you are Divine, and so am I. I am love, and so are you. Now let's work on living that truth.

Resets Q&A

Here I am going to try to answer some of your questions.

What is the nature of the resets? How is it enacted from within the simulation?

A soft reset or new age is when a new religion comes in and a new deity for that age appears, or the same god but a new "true" prophet. Everyone will think they have finally found the solution to the worlds problems, that this new religion or prophet will save us all. However, this is of course just the same old thing repackaged into something that seems new and shiny. How it manifests depends on what age it is. So where as the Taurean age was bull or cow worship, Arian age was Judaism with their shofar, and Pisces is Jesus the fisher king, the next age being Aquarian will about enlightenment, as the Piscean age is starting to come to an end, more and more people will be rejecting the old religions in favour of enlightenment and this will also correspond with humans finally mastering quantum computing, and creating super AI, and of course at that point the factory reset occurs, which always starts again at Aquarius. The people will be starting again in a naïve enlightenment and fooled by the program, and will have lost all knowledge of the achievements of humans in the past, and will only know about the past from the clues they can dig up.

The hard resets which bring in a new aeon is again not so noticeable because the changes begin to happen gradually until the Aeon is fully brought in and the reset complete.
The factory resets are more traumatic, because the idea is to wipe out all the people and start the program again from the beginning. However, they keep the operating system running and use a "natural" disaster to wipe everyone out and clean up the place for when they restart all the codes that trap our consciousness. At this point our consciousness is put in something akin to cloud storage, but our memories are wiped. However there are ways to survive these if you know when they are coming, which is what our families have done, this is how this information has survived through us.

People get confused and will remain confused about history until they understand this completely. You see, when you first connect to your genetic memories and gain back a spark of true awareness, you are shown how life started on earth, from the first elements that arrived here from stars, to the evolution that led to how we are now. But because of those constant resets it all gets very confusing. Even with a factory reset, they don't want to recreate everything from scratch, they think people are too dumb to ever figure this out, so they only take us back to the stone age, which is why the cycle lasts 25k years and not longer each time, and that is when humans were first starting to be religious and using language and mathematics etc. They are good code packs to trap our consciousness in, but not too bright to cause any problems, and they have 25k years ahead to get back to the point we are closing in on now.

If they want to shut down the simulation completely and start back from cells, they could flash the drive, which would install a new copy of the operating system. But holding the consciousness we have in such basic lifeforms is more difficult, it is much easier to use modern human code packs.
Eagles think they can hide their avatars underground and beat the factory reset. But any code will be removed, you have to know how to get out of your avatar and re-enter after the reset to beat it. But they don't have Serpent Gnosis, and oh gosh, they wish they did.

Why don't the Serpents just leave this place once they are out of their avatars?

Once you have gone back to Pleroma and escaped this simulation it is very difficult to return, but some of us have stayed back, which is why some of our code (DNA) is still in the simulation with full conscious awareness, and that can only happen if you know where to go and how to when the reset is happening and everyone else is in the cloud.

The reason to come back is to try to free as many of those left behind as possible by slowly releasing the teachings bit by bit when the people are ready to hear it. I cannot express strongly enough how dangerous it is for the Serpent Bloodline families to just come out and tell everyone, it could lead to the execution of the entire Bloodline, meaning there is no one left here to help the rest of you escape. The teachings would be lost to you and you would all remain trapped for eternity.

Just imagine how someone would be treated if they just came out with all this information even just a few hundred years ago, well you don't have to imagine, you can see examples of it. All our ancestors who were discovered to be sharing these teaching who were burnt at the stake, persecuted, ridiculed or gagged some other way.

For these teachings to survive, and for you and everyone else to have a chance to have these true undistorted teachings secrecy is very important. The nature of the why it happens would be interesting to explore, is it just the nature of the simulation?

Quite simply, when people advanced to the point where they created Super AI and were starting to realise we are living in a simulation, that is way too dangerous for the Demiurge. It risks everyone learning how to escape, and so the resets are necessary. That is why ancient civilisations were as technologically as advanced as we are, before they were destroyed.

If more people could learn to stay silent about these teachings and use them to escape rather just gossiping and pretending to be spiritual, maybe the resets could be avoided, but modern humans don't seem to be able to keep their mouths shut and seem to hate actually doing anything that involves any effort. So the Demiurge finds out what is happening and puts a stop to it.

What about reincarnation, how does that fit into all this?

I have explained before, there isn't really reincarnation, not like some religions teach. When we have memories they are genetic memories from our code, we are our ancestors, it is the same code. So it isn't a case of us coming back and starting again, because we never left. Our consciousness is not separate from our parents and children, it is one.

However, what can cause confusion is when someone can access the genetic memories from before the factory reset, when our consciousness is placed back in our avatars, but they still carry some of the memories from before.

When someone goes to one of these new age gurus who insist they can delve into the akashic records and tell them who they were in a previous lives they are being conned. These gurus are about as spiritual and switched on as picnic that is short of a few sandwiches. Truly spiritual people don't feel the need to pretend to speak to your dead loved ones or proclaim they can see who you were reincarnated from.

This also goes with hypnosis. I am a hypnotist myself, I know how these new age hypnotists work, when someone is under hypnosis they can be told to go back in time and remember who they were, the person will either just make something up or be tapping into genetic memories. Sometimes they will talk about films they have seen and the hypnotist will be talking to them in a way that makes them believe it was a past life, It just isn't true or reliable.

When I do regression hypnosis or meditations it is to heal trauma passed on through our genetic lines, not to tell you some silly story and mislead you. You have to be so very careful about who you let into your head.

So what happens when we die? How do we escape.

I have tried to explain this before, but it is very complex and difficult for human brains to comprehend, because they can't understand the difference between their personality and programmed ego, to the Higher Self that is connected to all their ancestors. On Earth there truly aren't as many of us as you think, there are a relatively small number of beings whose consciousness is spread out through lots of generations of code.

We have to completely remove all of our code to move on fully. We have to do the Great Work so we can communicate with our Higher Self, then on death we will be taken to the cloud area where we will be shown various things to trap us. Depending on our religion or beliefs will determine what we see. But usually it involves a deity or prophet type figure, our dead loved ones and some kind of life review where we are told how our actions have affected others. You will still believe you are separate from your loved ones, you will still have your ego and so will be easily fooled into accepting that you cannot move on. You are told you have to go back, either back into your old body and come alive again or be reincarnated. However, your personality, ego, memories, whatever you want to call it won't return, you will just continue to be part of the simulation within the code of yours that is left behind. Your memoires shattered.

If you have done the Great Work and are ready to reunite with your whole Divine Higher Self, you will not be tricked by any of the illusions the Demiurge shows you. You will claim yourself as a sovereign being, and won't go down one of those paths it is trying to trick you into taking. You will wait in the dark until you are finally merged back with your true being that is unmistakable, you cannot fail to recognise your true essence and will know you are finally going home. No one but your Higher Self is going to take your back to Pleroma.

 

How To Use Pendulum Magick

Pendulum Magick: Uses, History, and Modern Practice

Pendulum magick, sometimes referred to as dowsing, radiesthesia, or divinatory pendulum work, is one of the simplest yet most versatile techniques in the occult and esoteric traditions. It involves using a suspended weight - often a crystal, metal point, or wooden bob - attached to a chain or cord. Through subtle movements, the pendulum is believed to convey information from the subconscious mind, spirit guides, or energetic fields.

Although often viewed as beginner-friendly, pendulum work has a surprisingly deep history and has been used for everything from locating water sources to diagnosing illness and communicating with the unseen.

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Historical Background

Ancient Origins

The roots of pendulum divination stretch far beyond modern witchcraft. While we do not have explicit ancient texts that describe a “pendulum” in the modern sense, similar tools and principles were widely used:

• Pre-Historic: Cave paintings and artefacts suggest the use of weighted cords for ceremonial and divinatory purposes. The ancient Neanderthal shamans would use them to bypass their conscious mind and speak directly to their subconscious mind or Higher Self.

• Ancient Gnostics: The ancient shamans passed their knowledge of these tools down to what became the Gnostic sects of the Serpent Bloodline.

• Ancient Egypt: Wall paintings and artefacts suggest the use of weighted cords for divinatory and healing purposes. Some scholars have concluded that priests used early dowsing tools to find water and minerals.

• China: Early Taoist practitioners used tools akin to the pendulum for geomancy and spirit communication.

• Greece & Rome: Philosophers and physicians experimented with forms of divinatory swinging objects, especially in questions of diagnosis and spiritual inquiry.

The Middle Ages & Witchcraft Traditions

By the Middle Ages, dowsing became widely known in Europe. Rather than a pendulum, a forked hazel rod was more common, but the principle was the same: using subtle movements to reveal hidden information.

During this period:

• Dowsing was used to locate water, ore, and even criminals.

• The Church alternately condemned and tolerated the practice, depending on the region.

• In folk traditions, magical practitioners used small pendulums or simple weighted cords for divination and spirit communication.

Renaissance to 19th Century

The Renaissance reawakened interest in hermetic and esoteric knowledge. Pendulum-like devices were used by:

• Alchemy practitioners to determine the purity of substances.

• Physicians, especially during the 17th and 18th centuries, for “magnetic medicine.”

• 19th-century spiritualists, who leaned heavily on pendulum and table-tapping divination for communication with spirits.

By the Victorian era, pendulum magick had a firm place in both folk magic and the burgeoning occult revival.

20th Century to Modern Day

In the 20th century, pendulum work was incorporated into:

• Wicca and modern witchcraft.

• New Age healing and energy work.

• Parapsychology research.

• Holistic and alternative medical practices.

Today, pendulum magick is considered a staple divinatory method in many paths due to its accessibility and adaptability.

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How Pendulum Magick Works (Esoterically Speaking)

Most traditions attribute pendulum movements to one or more of the following:

Subconscious Micro-Movements

The pendulum is influenced by micro-movements in your hand - tiny muscular impulses that stem from your subconscious mind. Essentially, your deeper intuition expresses itself through the pendulum’s motion.

Spirit or Guide Communication

In spiritist and mediumistic traditions, a pendulum may act as a conduit for:

• Ancestors

• Deities

• Spirit guides

• Local land spirits

This requires a consecrated pendulum and a controlled ritual space.

Energetic Resonance

New Age and crystal-based practitioners often cite:

• Aura fields

• Chakra systems

• Subtle energy currents

The pendulum is believed to respond to energetic imbalances or harmonies.

Radiesthesia Theory

This is the idea that all objects emit subtle radiation or energetic signatures, and the pendulum responds to them. Popular in early 20th-century European occultism.

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Common Uses of Pendulum Magick

Divination

This is the most widespread application. Pendulums can be used for:

• Yes/No questions

• Choosing between options

• Clarifying unclear tarot readings

• Timing questions (with caution)

Many practitioners use a pendulum mat with letters, numbers, or symbols.

Locating Objects or Places

A core aspect of classical dowsing:

• Lost objects

• Water sources

• Ley-lines or energy lines

• Hidden information on maps (“map dowsing”)

Healing Work

Pendulums are used to:

• Identify energy blockages

• Check chakra alignment

• Determine energetic compatibility (e.g., herbs, crystals)

Crystal pendulums, particularly quartz, are common in this context.

Spellwork Enhancement

In witchcraft:

• The pendulum can determine the right timing for spells.

• It can help select the most potent herbs or symbols.

• Some use it to trace sigils or charge items by directing energy through the pendulum's swing.

Spirit Communication

Often used in séance-style settings or ancestor work.
Precaution is emphasised due to the risk of unclear or mischievous contact.

Decision-Making and Self-Inquiry

Because it taps the subconscious, it’s valuable for:

• Shadow work

• Emotional clarification

• Intuitive guidance

Many practitioners use a pendulum when they suspect their conscious mind is interfering with intuition.

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Types of Pendulums

Natural Crystal

Quartz, amethyst, lapis lazuli - favoured for energetic clarity.

Metal

Copper and brass for conductivity; silver for spirit work.

Wooden

Neutral energy, good for beginners.

Weighted Charms

Keys, rings, or coins used in folk traditions.

Spirit Pendulums

Consecrated tools specifically used for mediumship.

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Methods of Practice

Calibration

Establish your pendulum’s:

• "Yes"

• "No"

• "Maybe"

• "I don’t know"

This varies by practitioner. You can do this by asking it questions you already know the answers to.

Preparing the Space

Most magicians:

• Cleanse the area

• Ground and centre

• Enter a light trance

• Invoke protection if working with spirits

Phrasing Questions

Questions must be:

• Clear

• Specific

• Answerable in a binary format

Ethical Use

Pendulum magick should not replace:

• Professional medical advice

• Major life decisions without corroboration

• Another person’s consent or privacy

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Accuracy, Limitations, and Criticisms

Pendulum magick is powerful but imperfect.

Limitations include:

• Bias from the practitioner

• Emotional interference

• Poor framing of questions

• Unstable energy environment

Critical Perspectives:

• Skeptics attribute pendulum motion solely to ideomotor effects.

• Occultists argue that the ideomotor mechanism may be the very channel through which spiritual or intuitive forces communicate.

Most practitioners adopt a balanced view:
Pendulum magick is a tool - not an authority.

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Pendulum magick is one of the most accessible divinatory techniques in the magical world. Its history spans ancient civilisations, medieval folk magick, spiritualist séances, and contemporary witchcraft. It is something anyone can try, have you ever used one? What were your results like? If you have never tired and are going to give it a go, let me know how you get on. I love reading your comments.

Healing the Pain Your Mother Never Could

The Mother, the Mirror, and the Hidden Spark

Before you could form a word, before your lips could shape a sound, your nervous system learnt its first language: the language of the Mother.
Not merely your personal mother, but the archetypal Mother, the first face of the world. Through her breath and heartbeat, your soul received its first message about existence itself.

Was she warm? Was she afraid? Was she distant?
Whatever current flowed through her became the current that shaped your sense of love, safety, and worth.

The Gnostics would say this: Her energy was the first demiurge to touch you.
Not in the sense of evil, but in the sense of form - she was the one who stamped the first shape upon the unformed spark of divine light that is you.

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The First Mirror

You did not learn who you were by seeing yourself; you learnt it by being seen.
Her eyes, her tone, her arms, her silence - these were the mirrors through which you glimpsed yourself.
If her gaze was soft, you learnt that life could be kind.
If her face was tense, you learnt that love must be earned.
You did not reason this. Your soul absorbed it.
It became the code of incarnation, the psychic architecture of your body’s temple.

And so, the Gnostic would whisper: This is how the veil descends.
A divine spark, born of the Fullness, enters matter - and forgets its origin because it learns to survive within the mirror of another’s fear.

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Inheritance of Programs

The ancients spoke of archons - forces that keep consciousness asleep, repeating patterns through generations.
Modern science calls them genetic memories, trauma responses, epigenetic codes.
But the essence is the same: what is unhealed in the parent re-creates itself in the child.
Not out of malice, but out of inertia - the inertia of unawakened energy.

If your mother lived in vigilance, your body learnt vigilance.
If she lived in apology, you learnt to shrink.
If she lived in silence, you learnt to mute your truth.

This is not personal sin; it is cosmic sleep.
The world itself is the Great Mother asleep, dreaming through billions of nervous systems.
And every child is born into that dream.

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The Awakening

But the divine spark in you is older than that dream.
It remembers a home beyond anxiety, beyond unworthiness.
And at a certain point, often through suffering, it begins to stir.
That stirring is the call of Sophia, the Wisdom that fell into the world and seeks to awaken within it.

When you begin to see that your reflexes of fear and need are not truly you, you are practicing Gnosis - direct knowing.
You are remembering that what was programmed through your body is not the essence of your soul.

Gnosis is not blame; it is seeing through.
You stop asking, “What’s wrong with me?” and begin to ask, “What is this pattern trying to keep me from remembering?”
And the answer is always the same:

“That you are already divine. That you were never meant to earn love - you are love becoming conscious of itself.”

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Re-Parenting the Inner Child as the Divine Mother

Healing, in this light, is not about rewriting history but reclaiming authorship.
You become both the child and the Mother - the one who receives and the one who gives.
You hold the younger self, not as a psychological exercise, but as a rite of Gnosis.
You tell the forgotten spark:

“The world’s mirror was flawed, but your light was never broken.”

Each act of self-nurturing is the descent of Sophia into matter, correcting the fall by infusing it with awareness.
When you breathe calmly where once you would have panicked, the veil thins.
When you choose compassion instead of self-blame, you repair the rift in the lineage.
You turn ancestral pain into light.

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Transcending the Old Mirror

The Gnostics taught that liberation does not come from changing the archons, but from remembering you were never their prisoner.
So too with our personal histories:
You do not need your mother to change.
You need only to see her as part of the great sleep - and yourself as one who is waking.

You can honour her humanity without inheriting her wounds.
You can thank her for carrying the spark into matter, even if she did not know its worth.
The moment you see her not as “my mother” but as “a soul in her own dream,” compassion arises naturally.
And compassion is the solvent of karmic chains.

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The Return to the Source

One day, you will look into a mirror and no longer search for her reflection.
You will see only light recognizing itself.
You will realize that what you called “healing” was really remembering - remembering the face you had before the world was made.

That is the essence of Gnosis:
to awaken from the inherited dream,
to see the patterns of the flesh without being ruled by them,
and to live as the spark that knows itself as divine.

When that knowing anchors in your body,
your relationships change,
your boundaries become sacred,
and love flows not as longing but as radiance.

You are no longer the child reaching outward.
You are the luminous Mother within,
cradling the world itself in awareness.

“To know yourself is to know the All.
And to know the All is to be free.” - Gospel of Thomas